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| 10:57pm 08/08/2009 |
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mood:  determined music: Skillet
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Dear Journal,
It's been awhile since I've last written in this thing. A lot has happened. Stuff that I wish hadn't happened and stuff that I'm glad that it happened. Still best friends with Hailey. I actually spent the night at her house last night. But recently, I've been trying to get over my recent heart break. I'm not going to mention any names, but let's just say that a certain boy that I loved broke my heart. Not just once, or twice. But several times and... it really hurt. I'm still not fully recovered from it. But there's nothing I can do.
I'm happy now. I'm going to forget him and I'm going to move on. I'm not going to let him manipulate me anymore. I'm tired of being afraid. I want to be confident. So, I'm going to try. Not just laze my way around things anymore. I want to be happy and dammit, I'll be happy. Not saying that I'll never be sad again because that's impossible. I'm just not going to let this sorrow rule my life any longer.
Yours truly,
Eliah |
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| Wow indeed. |
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| 11:42am 01/12/2008 |
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So, it comes to my attention that I haven't even thought to write a journal entry down nor actually even remember that I had this thing. I kind of feel bad for neglecting it for such a long time. I dare not even look at the date of my last entry. -shudder- I feel almost like I should apologize to you all, mostly my journal. I guess I've been so preoccupied with life and such that I just... forgot to jot it down in this thing. -dusts it off- Let's see, maybe I should start by telling about what's been going on in my life?
Hmm, let's see. I'm a junior now and already slacking in my grades. I guess I'm just kind of tired it all. School, in general, I mean. After all, how long have I been in school? Since I was like five, back in kindergarten. I'm now almost eighteen. That's way too damn long. I mean, I feel almost like I've done nothing but waste my life away with this so called school life. Seriously, what's the point of learning all of this shit when you're just gonna forget about it later on? It's kind of useless, you know? I guess, I'm kind of in a ranty mood, but oh well. I'll be nice and not rant about school anymore.
Moving on.. I have found this boy that I'm absolutely crazy about. Yes, Gabby has a boyfriend! Yaaay! He's absolutely amazing, you know? He makes me so happy and I'm addicted to everything about him. I know I told myself that I would never become dependent on someone, but alas, so much for that. I think I would die if I didn't have my Alex. Isn't it funny that I'm dating a guy that has the name Alexander, which I actually love? I mean, I love him AND his name. How cool is that?
So, I still have my bird Sunshine. I'm hoping that maybe during Christmas, when I get a lot of money, I can buy another cockatiel so he won't be lonely. I don't know if I've mentioned, but I have two baby aquatic turtles. One is a red ear slider turtle named Glider who is super shy and super cute. The other one is a yellow ear, yellow belly slider turtle named Slider. Yes, my two turtles have rhyming names. Slider and Glider. =D Slider is actually bigger than Glider, and I think Glider is older. How funny is that? I also have a white and gray bunny named Dusty. A friend of mine gave him to me.
Let's see, let's see... So, I'm still friends with Hailey, right? I've come to collect a group of close friends whom I trust dearly. I mean, without them, I would be nothing. Absolutely nothing. Yeah, I owe my life to them. Yeah.... I think I'll end this for now. It's getting long enough.
So, farewell for now!
I bid thee adieu,
- Gabrielle/Elly |
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| 07:54pm 03/09/2008 |
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mood:  amused
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Dammit. I did it again. I can't believe it's been almost a year since my last journal entry. Wow, a lot has happened since I last wrote. I'm already in the 11th grade, got an amazing boyfriend, and wishing I was out of school already. I mean, after awhile, school gets old. I know it distracts me and allows me to see my friends, but I absolutely hate waking up early and having to wear shitty uniforms. Did I mention I hate math and doing homework? Totally lame. So, hurricane Gustav swept through recently. Let's just say that the big bad hurricane was basically all bark and no bite. Yep, we could have just stayed and been fine. Knowing our luck, if we had stayed, it probably would have lived up to all the rumors and shit. Ah well. So, the other day mom and I got in a fight. So, we're not exactly on the best of terms, but things are getting better. I'm not going to go into detail over what happened, because it was pretty much a lot of bull shit and chaos. Yeah. So, since the hurricane happened, I'm out of school until Monday. Hallelujah! Means I can sleep late and do the stuff I did during the summer but mom is nagging at me to clean my room and we all know how much I hate doing that. I mean, it's way too much effort and I'm way too lazy. As Shikamaru from Naruto would say, 'it's too troublesome.' Couldn't have said it better myself. Well, I'm going to end this for now. I'll probably edit it later or do another entry. I'll try not to wait until a year to update this thing again.
Peace yo, I'm out.
Much love,
Eliah/Gabby |
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| It's been awhile, hasn't it? |
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| 06:23pm 30/09/2007 |
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mood:  indescribable music: Video Kid by The Birthday Massacre
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Wow, I did it again. I forgot about this thing. The only reason I remembered it this time, was because a friend just mentioned it a few moments ago. Well, I suppose I have a lot to write about. I got a new dell desktop computer and I love it. Also, got a new game called Drakengard 2. It kicks ass. Um, um, um. I'm in the tenth grade now, and already flunking some classes. Tsk, tsk, tsk on me, eh? -Laughs lightly- Um.. I'm feeling lazy. I'll edit this later, if I remember. Bye for now! |
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| Long time no see, eh? |
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| 02:43pm 18/03/2007 |
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mood:  peaceful music: Broken Wings from Trinity Blood
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As the title says, it's been awhile since I've written in this thing. Kind of forgot I had one of these. So much for writing in it every other day, ne? So, recently since meeting a friend of a friend who is now my friend, I've changed into a better person. I'm no longer scared of the things I was afraid, such as death and other major things. I'm also happier, at peace with myself. I know I said there was no cure. Like how I said in a quote of mine, 'sorrow is like a cure without a disease.' Well, apparently, there are cures. Anyways, that's all for now! Ja! |
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| New Look! |
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| 04:27pm 15/01/2007 |
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mood:  hyper music: Broken Wings from Trinity Blood
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Okay, so I didn't get off my lazy butt and edit that last entry, but oh well. I got a new look on here, and I'm loving it. All thanks to a friend! Woot, you know who you are, friend. xD I'm just too lazy to name you, but as long as you know who you are, then that's all good. -Is so insane.- Anyways, er, um... -Tries to think of something else to write- Er, maybe I'll think of something to write later and edit this. Ja ne for now, m'loves. |
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| It's Been Awhile! |
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| 05:19pm 14/01/2007 |
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mood:  thoughtful music: Broken Wings voice over from Trinity Blood
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Wow, it's been awhile since I last posted in my journal. How bad of me. D: I'm supposed to be trying to write in this thing every other day, if not once every week! Bad me! -Smacks hand with other hand- Anyways, my birthday was on the tenth, and I'm sixteen now! Yay me! xD Um, I got my ears pierced, my nails done, and bought lots of things. Had my sweet sixteen party at the mall. It rocked. XD Because I'm so lazy, I'll finish this later. XD |
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| Holidays |
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| 04:31am 17/11/2006 |
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mood:  calm music: Lips of an Angel by Hinder
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I apologize, yet again, for not posting in this thing for a long time. My phone line got fixed, but my modem on my desktop had been acting up and wouldn't let me connect to the internet. So, I've been on the laptop, and way too lazy to check if my desktop is working okay yet. Anyways, tomorrow in school we have a half day because of some game. Something to do with the playoffs? Eh, I don't know. I don't pay attention to that boring stuff. Tomorrow we also get to wear blue jeans. Just so you know, students such as I have to wear icky uniforms, down in Louisiana. D: It's rather annoying. Oh well, I'm not going to rant about those cursed things. Tomorrow, I'll also be leaving for Arkansas. Yep, every year I get my stuff together and go along with my grandmother to Arkansas to spend Thanksgiving with her and other family members that come down to meet us there. Those who don't know, I was also born in Arkansas, so I'll be getting to go to my hometown. I'm bringing my baby ( Sunshine Rose, my bird ) with me. We're going to have to collapse his cage in order to fit it in the vehicle. Meanwhile, he's going to be in his smaller cage on my lap. Anyways, I'm going to end this entry for now because I can't think of anything to write. If I do, I'll edit this entry. Peace out, yo. <3333 |
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| Ashamed. |
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| 11:54pm 27/10/2006 |
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My, my, my. I told myself that I would try to write in this thing everyday or at least everyday. It started out okay, but I haven't wrote an entry in like.. a long time. I'm kind of embarrassed about not writing anything. In fact, I had kind of forgotten about having this here. A lot has happened, I guess. I feel like my life is going downhill. I've been having bad days like everyday it seems now. I'm just so stressed. I.. I can't even get all of my thoughts down in writing. Well, I guess I do have some things to talk about. There was a storm last night. Not just any storm, because it was a bad storm. I was so afraid last night, because the lighting and thunder seemed so close. In fact, it shook the house a few times. It even knocked my computer off and made it restart. It turns out that my phone line is down, and can't be fixed until like wednesday because a lot of people's lines are down. Now, I'm stuck having to use the main phone line, which means I'm stuck in the living room. Anyways, if I can think of anything else to write, I'll be sure to edit this entry. Later. |
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| Third Entry |
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| 05:28pm 09/08/2006 |
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mood:  disappointed music: Room of Angels from Silent Hill 4
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My, my, my, am I disappointed! It's been what, three days since I last wrote an entry? Anyways, I'm posting an entry now. I really don't feel like typing anything, but I must. I told myself that I would write something down in here either every day or every other day. I'm kind of excited, because my friend is coming over to spend the night. I had to clean up my room some and then put clean pillowcases and sheets on my bed and pillows. At first, the sheets weren't wanting to cooperate, but I eventually got them on. My bird is currently whistling at the moment as I type, and I keep turning my head to the window and looking out of of it. I've got my blinds fully open so I can see, since I'm waiting for my friend to arrive. Um, let's see what else I can think of to write. Oh! I went to registration yesterday, and saw some people I knew from school for the first time since school let out. Oh, it seems mom finally came home from errands. That's good, now I don't have to worry as much since my mom is home and my friend won't have to be here while mom isn't here. They should be here soon, and I'm glad. The other night I beat Kingdom Hearts 2. I was very pleased with the ending, in fact, I cried. I think, that I was happy that I beat it and then at the same time sad because it was over. Though, I still need to complete it all the way. I've almost fully completed Kingdom Hearts 1, so now I gotta complete both of them. Oh boy. Ah, Sunshine's still whistling. Haha. Um.. I can't think of anything more to write, and if I do, I'll edit this. Bye! |
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| 04:13pm 06/08/2006 |
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mood:  irritated music: Otherside by Red Hot Chilli Peppers
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I know it may appear that I am writing another entry for the same day, but in truth, that isn't totally true. When I wrote my first entry, it was early in the morning, around two or so in the morning. Now, it's around four something in the afternoon. I'm sure you all recall that I was having trouble sleeping? Well, around three or four in the morning, I finally fell asleep. I didn't wake up until three something in the afternoon, not counting the brief times I woke up and went back to sleep between those two times. Anyways, mom was apparently upset with me since I won't go to the mall with her. She's been trying to get me to go for several days now in order to try on some uniform pants for school. I don't want to go to the mall, because I wouldn't have any money to spend, and I'd feel upset. I'd rather go to the mall, with money to spend on something. Anyways, next week is back to school. Oh great, time for school again. Darn, the summer was too short! I'm going to be going to High School, finally. I'm kind of nervous just like I am everytime I have to go back to school. This year, however, I am more nervous than normal because I'll be going to High School for the first time. Anyways, this weekend, my dad and step-mom are taking me to a town near the beach. If everything turns out, we're either going to spend the night on the beach in a motel or something or in a town a little ways from it. If not, we're just going to go for the day. I'm quite excited, since I've only been there once and that was a long time ago. I'm really looking foreward to going there again. Anyways, that's all for now. If anything happens or I think of something I forgot, I'll edit this entry. |
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| 02:26am 06/08/2006 |
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At last, it is the first entry I am posting on my brand new live journal account thingy. I'm going to try and keep this updated as much as I can. I'm normally not one to keep journals, but I think it might be good for me to try and write almost daily here. It might help to get some of my thoughts off of my chest and perhaps ease my troubled mind. Okay, it's around 2:00 something in the morning. Around twelve, I woke up and panicked. I thought I had seen something on my wall when I looked at it, but I discovered when I turned on my lights, that it was only part of the wolf on my blanket that I have hanging on the wall right near my bed. I've probably only gotten about maybe 30 minutes or less of sleep. I'm restless and kind of scared to attempt to go back to sleep. I get like this sometimes, because I fear going to sleep and not being able to wake up or something. I think my bird is mad at me, because I've got the lights on in my room. I think I'll get up soon and turn off the lights for him so he can sleep soon, but I don't know how I can handle being in the dark. Sure, my tv and computer screen would provide light, but that wouldn't help much. I'm scared of the dark, and before someone starts laughing at me or something because of such a childish fear, give me a break. I'm sure I'm not the only one who's scared of the dark. Truthfully, deep down inside, every one of us is supposed to fear the dark. I heard on a show once, that humans naturally fear the dark, but yet not the dark itself. More like what might lurk in the dark and our imaginations tend to run wild, filling our minds with scary thoughts, thus making us fear the dark. Eh, enough about the dark and stuff. Um.. I don't know what else to put, so I guess I'll end this entry. |
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